Translation

 Der nicht ging im Rat der Gottlosen


Translation



Translation when History ThOLOGY and Politics are mixed in,
is, with all its burden buried parts, complicated.
In my situation even more, because  I am a profound unfit speaker improper thinker
and the feeling of language, its inner elegance and outmost originality, its taste, its depth and afterthoughts  the subtelties between tongue teeth salive and melodie to paraphrase some of Nobokov's impressive masterpieces I love to keep them swinging swirled up discreet/indiscrete unfinished trailing...
(of course in a very limited way because I am motherfucker German and have as such a limited mind brain as some of my old French colleges love to remind me  arrêtée arrierée I have to be limited in any way possible<)

In my situation I think better ...to keep things going on a slippery ground
more apt and likely to appear naiv, to be foolish than rigid in dignity.

Translation here is part of process, part of the historical procedure of RECONSTRUCTION which in itself seems foolish but not uninteresting - because World War 2 is still to be won if I am correctly informed.

Reconstruction therefore of some existing (or not) links between some Germans and some Not
part of the Friendship between Carl Theil Buber. And que cela vous déplaise de la traduction de la BIBLE la Scripture
and translation is at the heart of Montessorian pedagogy and Miussionary efforts in Africa
part of German Aryanization of French Publishers
and of course through the (very selfish) use  I am making of those documents part of the whicked evil entreprise undertaking to pervert Europe or the world with German cognitive structure (Xavier Bordes).

Translation itself is here in my documents a kind of last resort against a very black deadly background.
Knowing that TODAY this kind of endeavor seems even more ridiculous
and the support from Jewish NOne because it looks like a second profanation

Translating Martin Buber Wrting into German and then Into French or English and then translating all back...looks foolish( even the protestant idea translating the SCRIPTURA is an empty IDEa: burning emptities)...

My problem here  is  the TRANSLATION of the first Psalm Psaume…for French People.  (Unfortunaetly the world and especially the Human rights  have been created in French and so for French reasons sometimes you have to be more than explicit)  ON the Word COUNSEL

CONSEIL

"Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked"

"Heureux l'homme qui ne marche pas selon le conseil des méchants"

which, in my situation is a complete mess... Conseil could be something else.
An in this CONTEXT ...walking IN or sitting ON ...woudl mark a profound difference
And for the writer of a letter I want to translate: the word of CONSEIL Counsel ist not teh most important.
Probably du to some Gestapo Surveillance Background Context
Which is difficult to explain because CONTEXT is difficult word TODAY.

because you see, Foolish me, insisting on the Idea it would mean any Form of COUNSEL
BUT a precise One OBJECT: A GERMAN ONE.
With a very clear message.

So my WRITER if I may claim the person in question belonging to me and or for my project
The Writer of the letter focuses on walking into the Cousel. Or sitting on some kind of stone or bench..
Still, I admit, following my reading it is a State Conseil and that's a bit different
Because it is must be a State Counsel where the decision-makers are going to make a decision about LE SALUT, to put a French word in absolute denial of the German HEIL…because it is not for the Sake…but something else which is to be decided.
And thats just the point.



blessing for the people?
which also has to be eliminated.

google Translates:
Good for the people, which would also have to be eliminated.


Political issues concerning ELIMINATION of people In general or People tout court
are - in limited brain - tied to State adminstrations
or higher

perhaps an obvious misunderstanding of mine because for some  other minor  reasons I have to read Heidegger On State / Heidegger on Hegel
And, poor me, I do not agree with Mr Trawny or Maurer or some Americain Hegel Interpretes ... but this is mostly because of their unwillingness and  ignorance to read deeper German on von Trott zu Solz.

The Redaction of the laws OF Blood and Breed …sorry..And Heideggers Unwillingness to discuss Blood and LAWs. In America tehy read antisemitic stereotypes where I do read mathematical sciences but wtf…I am a German reader thats for a lot of people already the dead bunch of dead souls nothing to read then). You can’t read as a dead soul than stare into blindness unfit to hear anything
As my nonfamily  would say.
But anyhow - between darkness and deafness  any parliamentary discussions could be interesting.

In my case for instance the problem is not mainly exclusion based on Blood and blood-pressure but the more basic principle of  NOMOS or LAW.
HOW to exclude a huge part of the population.

What is exclusion.Which are measures taken up to install OR to prevent
Where are they decided
and for this reason some remarks in the letter I Tried here to translate or not to translate..... I'll skip… my audience is already bored to death

are interesting indications.... which I can slowly but hopefully fill with other documents ideas and indications from other members of........ family.

But the problem is not only HOW to translate CONSEIL
marcher DANS le conseil
ou être part du conseil, être membre du Conseil des ministres, par exemple...
ridicoulous difference without any importance...
but  we could imagine some excluded people very unimportant b ut eager to learn more and  especially how to get access to The INNER Circle ..?
You never had this idea... if I only could get in touch with the King... ...never? Ok ok dismissed the idea...


If the question or the important point this letter was written for, was only about .... to walk or to sit in the Circle Conseil des Mechants or  Whicked and evil people.....
and the elimination of the entire population which seems quite exaggerated but not surprisingly today, which is...for a  translator ...a bit difficult...
this time-based understanding

Because you see Time-based understanding ha sto come to light as well…
How to transform things in a more  apt or actual …rendering recapitulation
Closing every possible debate of. sake Good Blessing…
And teh exclusion of Blessing or…äh…. Savety… as to
the problem of legal or illegal arrests. which  are more or less even today something a political state  quarrels with, useful or not, illegal or not , which out of a sudden got something way beyond human understanding

(A lot of difficulties here in redacting my posts..unfortunately I hve to mention all kind of absurd transformations of my writing because sometimes things appear as my saying which I would never have said...but police is without any support)

"Vergewaltigte" *
*der Sinn dieses Wortes fordert noch nicht die Tatsache der vollen Zerstörung, sondern sagt nur aus: Babylon (der Vergewaltigerin) ist jetzt selber Gewalt angetan worden, und daran schließ an die Rachepreisung für die Zukunft: Aber die Zerstörung( Persis griech. nicht gleichfalls mit Wortspiel Sinn im Griechischen)!  

But this is Carl Theil in person… I will not translate, because this is the next post (If I don’t forget)
and I should give some more information about Carl Theil's letter, the circonstances he had written this particular letter and why he send it  to Martin Buber.

In Germany I don' t have the right to talk  much about CONTEXT
because Context means NOW (and is synonym with) denial of  any possible genocidal practises...
Difficult to mention Context and Context so I thought it might be helpful to speak of a kind of Context 1 and Context 2 ...?
Context 2 would be - from my point of view - Martin Buber's then actual situation, then,  on the first of November 1935 and the fact, established by his still existing edited volumes - that the printer had already got Martin Buber's translation of the sorry PSALMEN...SPRÜCHE...LOBPREISUNGEN and there was no need nor necessity for rewriting or redacting them...

But running through my old lines of translation...here some (minor ) translation of Carl Theil letter (a small part because the entire letter runs over several pages)...One translation by me the other by Google... unfortunately Grammarly is not running on this device...


Heureux l'homme qui ne marche pas selon le conseil des méchants. Qui ne s'arrête pas sur la voie des pécheurs. Et qui s'assied pas en compagnie des moqeurs...


Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers;


For the Lord knows the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked will perish.


Theil
Jena, 28.october,35.
Dear friend! Thanks for your letter! Some significant things I scarcely could say, so I had to keep silent, but nevertheless there are some points which are important and in particular at least referring to the first gospel i would like to let you know. for thsi i will join the first pages of my notes.
What bothers me most …what disconcert me most is the ongoing. throrough substitution of the word „sake“
good.  
- through „happy“ twosyllables or three. twofold / threefold
blessed which occurs to me as having less impact   less substance et therefore weaker and pale, but also with contrasting meaning  …it is perhaps my personal discomfort only with this wording) But if it was to be said/set/placed, what I would accept with regret, then another line is still left: For the people’s sake
Good for teh people … blessing for the people?
which also has to be eliminated.


Dear friend! Thank you for your letter! I hardly have anything "important" to say, so I would probably have to remain silent, but there are some things that are important to me, and some of them, especially those relating to Psalm I, I would like you to at least know. I am therefore enclosing the first pages of my notes.
What bothers me the most is the almost continuous replacement of the succinct, pithy “Wohl” with the two or even three syllables “glücklich” and “blissful”, which not only seems to me to have less substance and therefore be weaker and paler, but also more ambiguously (Perhaps (I?) also personally have a stronger aversion to this word). But if it is to be used, which I only use
regret happened, then PS.89 p. 147? one spot left. Good for the people, which would also have to be eliminated.

The transhistorical cause

 

 

This picture, I thought, might help raising some questions about PROOF.

Or EVIDENCE.

Most people don't think necessary to  READ the text hidden behind this picture.

There is none and nothing of interest and if there were some individuals concerned by GESTAPO Letters, it is of no public interest anymore.
They would live through any form of hell...but they couldn't possibly be linked to "The Jewish State" nor to an jewish-arab "Friendship "or in any case LINKED to anything concerning Palestine.

Some personal belongings to late family members of my fascist family gone long time ago
some incomprehensible awful twisted situations
suicides on weddings broken fiancés and lies
mixing Geman Jews and assimilation

do ONLY concern RUBBISH.
Rubbish is not interesting.

There is no LOGIC INTO IT. Talking about German Concentration camps FROM THE INSIDE Of Germany is seen, from a philosophical background, and  from a kind of INBETWEEN in the philosophical range of discussion  considered as quite impossible.
(quote Tugenhat quote Wildenauer  quote Heinze)

Even then it was up to the general conclusion "Germans are nazis and nazis do uncomprehensible things"
quote Simone Weil
all this would be nothing more than historical BULLSHIT.
Empirical stuff of some nazi people nothing more than  a mindful dusty dirt, drying up all empathy.
Sometimes individuals stood up for general ideas and sometimes they are (destined) dooemed illfated)  to be represented by those general ideas…
but wtf not in my case

Talking about MARTIN BUBER is just BULLSHIT
and a kind of unfriendly appropriation from my side (and if I  ever got some support by the Jerusalem University is was based on fake and false assertions)
Talking about Hermann Cohen ist BUllshit
(as far one of my ultraorthodox Jewish comedian told me because they are....  kind of..... assimilation assholes. Which were not exactly his words…but ponctuated by silence  I thought helpful to complete the underlying missing links)

Historical PROOF Is only interesting if it serves the Now transhistorical CAUSE.
It would be of general interest IF ONLY  there was a kind of GENERAL IDEA
of how to use Mass Murdering, Trap and getting away with and so on....

The reason why I dare mentioning this GESTAPAstuff. (sic )
to farer extre.....  Instrinsic en´xtrensic   excentricities
following this dubious letter
are NOT to deny Mass MURDER
as most of my actual haters believe. 

Mass murdering or  going further “Admitting to accusations of genocidal cases” before the Highest International Courts...Those with the highest stakes. and the strongest exigencies are procedures
someone like me should approach in the most humble way possible.
And given the case that  my weakest lies still need Years of sophisticated argumentation and  elaborated documentation, they ought to be taken with the outmost caution:
Because as a genetical liar I am  linked to every thing untrustworthy.

(Linked to the next philosophical burden, someone like me has to affront confirming the philosophical implications of people notexisting which means logically notexisting  is as the equivalent of NOT Truth, not true...)

This kind of flickering untruthfulness describes very well also
The ones I have to deal with and the problem is …what is at stake here and  concerns this shitty letter.
I admit having difficulties with my words…which is a problem of TRANSLATION…wtf…

The knowledge about concentration camps
And what was happening there in Buchenwald or Ravensbrück
Being there or not
Every possible thing  someone knew about



even if

 

here Hate, interfering, pretends I should denounce myself as coupable  even if someone could present the most accurate documentation about NOT HAVING BEEN  in Baby Yar
Therefore still I Must be held RESPONIBLE IN PERSON says hate.


This is my moral obligation
and This is the question ...i would like to  share with others. The reproach is on one side
what to do with it - on  the other
and condemnation does not signify all, condemnation does not exhaust the meaning.

But: why should anybody be interested in figuring out old phony TRAPS of the Past
Catcxh set up by the GESTAPO
to lure more Notinnocent people into death...
as hate might say (because hate is innocent. and has the exclusive rights  on the definition of  innocence).

Forget Forgetting     
Forget the words what is a trap...
and what could be  the Utility
But it looks like …


I didn't even know that in the Third Reich and during The Third Reich practice of accusing opponents and people of different backgrounds (political artistical and biological...even if the latter is, in its definition  and its jurisdictional sentencing complicated - even for Nazi administration and its lawyers)   
holidays from KZ existed.
and what they are meant for.... what possible in doing then...being on holiday being on hold?


to be suspended

like the rhetoric of "hostages"
its incredible how the term of  "hostages could be diverted...but nobody speaks against it..
when  Mr Trump uses the word
or
the presumably  assymetrical use of genocide accusation and the question why the International Law has IMPERATIVELY to be changed as the Berliner Tagesspiegel tells its readers NOW:

My family members deemed war criminals without accusation
or after appearing before the Nurenberg Trials
or never ever  (which is considered to be a wrongful situation ( and will always be and  for ever) if  I try to follow my detractors correctly)  should make the differenciation between the following dieffrend situations:

being held as a prisoner in a concentration camp
or  being kept in a prison without any accusation
or being "hostage" as a convicted criminal

would necessitate a more detailed approach.

But as Haaretz or The Jerusalem Post or The Tagesspiegel - which are all much better informed than an irrelevant individual subject in Germany) wrote - it looks like this is rhetorically intolerable but difficult to handle and so, International Law is discredited.

The question who and which as subject should be concerned by any Changes or Proposed Changes  made to International Law should remain and concern all of us:
because its  possible OUTCOME  is the one that affects even a piece of shit or a mentalyl ill person like me without a logic without any  logical and without any substantial claim
(personally I think this is due to the obvious German hypocrisie talking about boycotting AFD but submitting then the same Rhetoric of Outsider Exclusion to other Topics)

Si I do follow the COVERING (Sometimes  Iam wondering How any body could oversee this HEIDEGGERIAN USE Of UNcovering TRUTH) of this Mix ( I have not say "Mess") of political and juridictional consequences

But being held OUTSIDE
take off Talk OFF the Staatsbürgerrecht
or being PEOPLE

It seems to me difficult to understand ther "POLITICAL"  changes as the former Director of Shin Beit
In Haaretz ....political ....or as PEOPLE... wtf...what an idea.
Mahwoud Bargain...sic
or addressing any comments on the LEGAL team of the other side because employing TERRORISTS and CONVICTED terrorists, is something reminding me of the past BUT I am not sure  that after the slur and intimidation there comes a POLITICAL solution.
being hostage means you're always part of the evil process IN LAW

and we could stop here
because it is obvious that any progress being possibly made in NEGOTIATIONs
would always induce the evil part growing

The purpose OF TRAPS or hostages would nevertheless mean  -to conclude my shitty argumentation  or going back to its beginning -

You have to - if you want to READ or CONCEIVE or to set up a Trap that you have to adress the conception to an intended group of persons.
or at least have a group of persons in mind.
a subject to be attracted to....

in my case Hate knows and is certain as hell about German Fascist
Why should any german Fascist lure another one fascist into a trap?

Who could be a person of interest?




You don't care.
A group has to be ENEMY…or THE Other… there are no clutches of other ties…there is no solidarity no other impact


 

Law, violence, elimination and ...talking about.

 

The Other
And having Knowledge of....some...

is not conceived nor understood as a precise knowledge of the existence of concentration camps
Noticing what is happening there
what "they" do to inmates

And what's going on behind barbed wires.

THE Other is something different
something with a wider range, more specific and loose in the same time,
something hovering with warmth sympathy generosity listening caring over a group of persons on an abstract but non-metaphorical level hoovering in some kind over the individua,  soaking their mindset and transcending...

Just said with my shitty words - as a nazi-breed I do not have precise ideas about this (as my non-german / French / Switzer or. non.... family said having noticed the malsaine perverted negative background I am coming from))
This part of my personal life on the crossroads where general abstract ideas cut into any individuality is ...inconsistently and ridiculously bumped together

but as a Nazibreed, working on The Third Reich and some hidden ideas I pretend having got ( obviously lying, distortioning every word like an unfit reader, incompetent listener, and disloyal student) - I pretend having learned from and by my grandparents

One may say: (What possibly could a nazi have taught me rightfully ...?
 Wolfgnag Ritzel  forced me to read Cassirer Hönigswald and Diltehy in as quickly as possible saying something like: ‘There isn’t much time, but if you want, do it quickly...’

But wtf would one say, listening reluctantly, afraid of getting entangled in too much lies? What could a Nazi  have understood in reading Cassirer or Cohen...nothing but assimilated.... (My Jewish Berlin Interlocutor stopped and did not finish the sentence.... probably: bullshit - I must complete his silent judgement:..endgame in any sort of reliability...

Wtf what could my grandfather Wolfgang Ritzel have told me and what on a metaphysical as empirical level could he have known, so, in either one or the other way he could have transmitted ...some sort of...

(In any case way you must start with something in this dark irrational not-to-be- understood matter of absolute evil))

I started with this precise question: what did, what could have they known. in 1933 (About the sort of existential nothingness.. of the others political fate and civic inexistence, the nonprofessional hunger and exclusion...the beginning of the starving

And because of serious missing parts and missing links in and during the year 1933 I started with the Rise to power of my grandfather surrounding family.
The only comments I found were those written by my grandfather’s aunt to Haushofer. Dating back or -better - forth in the future to 1944 .

Haushofer pieces of information, at least, those written down on paper,which can be found in the Bundesarchiv come surprisingly from the same informant Trott zu Solz uses

I suppose there are not many who know who this is.
Depicted by the author Lauren Young - quoting her self-description - an academic and policy consultant in security and defense issues. lecturer at Yale University Establishing a backdrop background to for nazi ambition of Unity Mitford and speaking of the Clivedon Set
“Cliveden House remained a place of political intrigue even after the war”

Anthony Eden, whose political demise was linked directly to the Cliveden Set proclaimed “how terrible has been the influence of the Cliveden Set, ‘ while Harold Nicholsen, who famously stood up against the Munich Agreement, claimed that they were “a defeatest pampered group”.
The last meeting of the Cliveden Stet took place in the eve of the war during summer of 1939. Their agenda had been overturned by the inevitability of war. Ribbentrop, now the German foreign secretary, embarked on an early June weekend in 1939 on one of the last missions on beghalf of the German government in England. He sent as an emissary Adam von Triott zu Solz, a friend of Waldorf Astor from his Oxford days. Unknown to his hosts, he was sent in an inofficial capacity by the German Foreign Ministry to probe the group to see whatever there was any way to avert England’s entry into the war. Von Trott was in good companxy for such an inquiry...

Unfortuantely , Young is unable to give some more details about von Trott. Includig about the circonstances of his death . And the British network of his co- defendent James von Moltke.
Universities. Like Oxford

And. Gathering intelligence. Unusual like von Trott's reading of Franz Rosenzweigs Hegel interpretation
Is not part of the process of processing by Laura Lauren Young.
I confess not to remembering exactly her name but my oblivious temper is less offending than her narrative.

Adam von Trott zu Solz. Still a negative Nazi figure in Britain and obviously America by readers better informed than me.
Perfectly clear blurred hidden figures fading out into political insignificance by their own superficial weight and wickedness, consumed from the inside by their rotten substance. If not hung by some more superior moral forces coming out of absolut evil are just a kind of STAFFAGE for an intriguing wicked and perverted political system Paralyzed by NON-action.

I apologize for my inappropriate words..
I slut like to mix French and British words compiled and compelled by nothing and drawn by force to this end gap of civilisation. The concentration camp.

A very German obsession. Concentration camps

A kind of constitutional gap force violent
unfair
unrightful (sic) and unpleasant as well.

I should be careful if I would go more into family stuff.... But finally I am not in the position to do this, keeping in mind that my position is the weakest, most inferior to all possible theoretical standpoints - so I won't say much.

But even from the weakest position I am wondering why there should be only one possibility to interpret this coincidence.
Because from my point of view, there is a striking coincidence:
Haushofers Informant

And that of von Trott zu Solz

And the KNOWLEDGE of a kind of gap in the institutional power of the state over a greater part of its population by an existential “Right” of The Institution which is larger than the death penalty that is named by ...

My problem is there is also another coincidence and a third party taking position by interference..
Of course - If detailed reports are to be found in Haushofers restored controlled and much supervised papers then they should also exist in others. Archives..

and I found other papers in the archives of HAUER, a narcissistic nazistic German philosopher of religions befriended to Martin Buber.

And here, I do have a problem ....

My grandfather as a young student having read, by chance, too, a book of Hauer thought had not found it worth of much esteem. He wrote BULLSHIT in some engaging letters but then had send the book to his mother - about Religion God and

annoying
I wouldn't dare say
the annoying part of The Other involved into spiritual realm theological background and some of those funding fundamental themes. Of Being

Only somebody like huge philosophers dream of
but not me
I am far too shitty a person and won't dare think of or dream of absolut universal groundings ..

But I do still believe you don't put up areas to isolate and torture people and then speak of a kind of universal spiritual frame keeping them there. to say it as simple as this.

I could start with Levinas or Heidegger or one of my grandfather's choices:Walter Benjamin reading one of Johann Peter Hebel text's on antisemitic pogroms for personal use..
Unfortunately, I am not supposed to retell the analysis of Walter Benjamin. and or his intriguing exegesis of Johann Peter Hebels antisemitic tale.

What I could do would be
to start with war - Levinas
death - Heidegger
and torture - Hebel and Benjamin
and return to WAR with Heraklit and or Heidegger and or my grandfather's surprising cousin in-laws..

But I am weak in genealogy... even though every nazi should be able to tell them on three or four fingertips

About State and utterances
And About GENOCIDE

 

 

 

Yes - I do know that I am supposed to use very academic words.
I could refer to a writing ...a not-yet-to-be-called book BUT I do encounter so much interference while writing the text
and NO...there is no KI in my writing as long as I can prevent it
no automatic correction
I do need my words as shitty as they are
I do need my faults because they are mine even translating wrongfully madness

and my weakest counter... is to name it publicly...

 

 

The theological background is presumably only Christian and by this antisemitic in its purest sense, even in the difficulties of and with non-aryan Christian and the deduction to non-christians at all
The theological background of my grandfather has been violently faded out.

OR BUT hate helps a lot in distroying my efforts to rebuild a kind of personal puzzle

I was kind of / bit surprised not to find any in my family
because it took me at least seven years to find - and get access to
The papers of Hugo Schmidt, a pastor of the church of Brandenburg
tortured to death or murdered in the MOORExpress or by some other means in 1940

Hate tells me... ( French nodding now) This is only an inexistent truth nothing more than a lie

Better to read Walter Benjamin and Levinas and Derrida and Kafka about the hidden places of law and power and State Kojéve, Zizek and Lacan.

Santner. My own private Germany,1996

..."what manifests itself as the law’s inner decay is the fact that the rule of law is, on the final analysis, without ultime justification or legitimation, that the very space of juridical reason within which the rule of law obtains is established and sustained by a dimension of force and violence that, as it were, holds the place of those missing foundations. At its foundation, the rule of law is sutained not by reason alone but also by the force/ violence of a tautologous enounciation...

As Jacques Derrida has emphasized in a fine commentary on Benjamin’essay (i.e.Violence) Not Hebel...of course, nr) , the extralegal dimension of force. (.....to lay bare to postwar and postrevolution Weimar parlamentarians as W.Benjamins initial concern was - nr again)...can be subsumed under a more general notion of the performative structure of speech acts.

....it is, Benjamin suggests (and Santner, nr), this missing link. (At the origin of the symbolic capital circulation through it) pertaining to the emergence of instutions that drives the symbolic macxhinery of the law - for Benjamin, the paradigmatic institution - and infuses it with an element of violence and compulsion.

The Concept of THE OTHER and the constitutional frame of elimination

 I, Nataly Ritzel, doing some research about my ancestors
the implication of my grand grandfathers
the Implication of my grandfather's aunt and her commitment to Rudolf Hess, her bloody disloyality and some forms of being excluded from power without stopping to support Nazi- ideology...
my grand mother involvement in pedagogical intelligence

my grandfather's brother-in-law dying in concentration camp  and their supposed or their active participation in establishing the NS State
In short:Their willing contribution  and/ or their opposition and  possible acts of resistance

This - is just a hilarious question for all non-german readers  - because they know it there was no resistance at all and nothing similar to it.

Their relationship to "Jewish friends, neighbors, teachers and even more intimate: father-in-laws or godfathers taking on responsibility for German Fascists

It occurs - and this moment (of truth) is already very fragile
It occurs nevertheless because documents are documents are documents before you burn them

The frontier line between being fascist and being none
between being national-socialist and being non-aryan
existed so deeply so clearly
that you could trace the hands -  between them, i.e. the physical contact - the exchange the giving and the receiving of  answers
and the plight
the suffering
Both is deeply interwoven in my family’s network even when there are still lots of people denying something like a network existed.

The denial. of "what "we" are "  isolates me and makes my words ILLISIBLE
This kind of isolation also constitutes me as a subject paradoxically (translating mischievously  Judith Butler - her differentiation would be helpful- but I can't  work with her words If I am trying to cite or quote her, my computer is getting  attacked and everything is lost
So instead all I could do was think about the denial

the BLUR
and by doing so I have to follow the line of censorship even with all wrong torsions and other possible distortion popping up at every moment. Hate has come to know fascists better than they do themselves the shitty interaction via Computer can restart every day on point zero because hate hasn't enregistered any response at all, finally there is non and will never be: Fascists will always stand OUTside reasoning
every reason you might produce fades into nothing, creating a feeling of helplessness similar to speaking/connecting with someone suffering  Alzheimer disease...


Even if my words my research
is about Rudolf Hess or Hönigswald
The Führer’s Substitute or the Jewish philosopher
Martin Heidegger or  Karl Haushofer
The German philosopher and the German Geopolitician married to Martha Haushofer
Thinking about  the difficult situation of Karl and Albrecht Haushofer
their urgent tipping POint   in 1940 1939 or 1941…
Then Ascher or Cohen : The German professor after the war mayor or the Jewish philosopher, dead in 1918.

Thinking about The NAUMANN Juden , the paradoxical Jewish national-socialist Mouvcement

or even the teacher of Anne Frank
the director of the Montessorian association Jewish descent leading the organization from the Netherland’s underground

Is a perilous act.

In every moment  a kind of deep fake masochism intruding disfiguring my words my thoughts
T#es qu'une merde
Transforming Subjects

Of course, the idea of Germans being tortured for being revolutionary is historically speaking hilarious
The idea of a German combattant for the African cause could only be a blurred
phony preposterous Phainomenon. Self-indulgent biased  and in the long run serving nothing else than a mobile for jurisdictional prosecution:
Dying a horrible death in a  KZ - a concentration camp is what a German missionary deserved.
Even if I were to talk about anticolonialism and anti-imperialist movements  BEFORE  1933, the blur of Historical truth would wash out everything compared to African suffering compared to the Jewish Holocaust
Yet -it is not possible to speak of Comparison.

Whatever I could know - possibly know about German geopoliticians
from Rohrbach to Haushofer - and their possible connection to German philosophers form Husserl to Heidegger from Cassirer to Scheler.
Via my personal historical background was broken by the fact of being
OUTSIDE History.
(…my words have to be broken and even if I would dare to say the same as Masha Gessen I have to be erased in my own words.
Calling my self mad - as in Judith Butler analysis of Foucault (“The wrong doing - telling the truth”) does it constitue  a kind of legitimation  of our mutual discourse ? )


I doubt it, because the signs of concentration camps still are  MORE Valuable than anything else and I have here some of those horrible items in my possession,  taken out of time and history.
They look like a magical tool… taken out of time and suffering

The blurring - the devaluation is affecting the concept… of personality and or identity
Working on Hildegard Fath, the Führer’s substitute secretary, and what she could have known
Is affecting me: Writing about her makes me identical to her.

The German Heimtückegesetz here fits well:
HERE all of them have to be considered as WAR Criminals -  everybody is entitled to write this on my wall.
Thats great.  (But, hate - I would like to say  if you let me speak at least once-  you have omitted to think about devaluation - if you violate me, you're violating the access point to your own main argument.)

Denigration my research by using Deepfake
The Deepfae of being unhuman.

One of the main objections accusation against Germans , and especially in my case, against the members of my family
relies upon their presumed incapacity to see (in every day life)
to notice the suffering of others. But, The Suffering of THE Other

Is part of the invisible frontline, written in the institutional process of the New national-Socialist State
The frontline between someone creating the institutional frame
Of putting parts of the population out of the  legal system
Represents also the line to knowledge and  the possibility to look for solidarity.
Both is LINKED even in the process of creating a kind of legalized annihilation.

In Philosophical writing, THE OTHER is sometimes
Only sometimes -
To be found under the name of the “NON-I"

Something which I, Nataly, compare to negative conceptions Of  the “I”
Declining also The Self, Selfhood, or anything
Ascribable to a subject
Which could mean: easier to handle, to deal with, perhaps.
Negative Moments of Subjects
is one of the Family topics. From Hermann Ritzel to Edmund  Husserl bis Brentano

Then there must be is  some possibility to talk about double-faced personalities
as Haushofer, Martha and Karl and Albrecht

(I often heard hate say:
Cannot trust any  one of them
there are no innocents on the right side of the river Rhine
as there is no innocent person in Gaza…)

Being non-aryan or non-german constitutes not a single opposition, it breeds multiple choices.

But in my case and I have to say it, It comes near to STIGMaTA
Being a SLUT  rien qu’une merde
Something lesser than a mentally ill person and something quite worse:
I have to say it, because, if  I don’t do it,  I can be sure the next website is taken down. Words destroyed texts disappearing
Social devaluation is part of the process.

Thinking about nonhumans and those people without values
being genetically evil or born with indelibile hatred,  with hate in DNA
As it is written TODAY AGAIN In the newspaper world
let me look at today's military enclosures.
The usefulness of medical services for military intelligence.
( I think one can notice  the  fraccassed broken imagery of PURETY from medical care, linked to genetically rotten biases…. Makes the most minimal (which seems to be the most expensive of all manners) humanitarian ground simply  a tool for military  purposes…


It is NOT hilarious
to pretend,  there is a  necessity for research about German war criminals and simultaneously to find it consequential and logically right to humiliate the research about the biography and deeds of war criminals.

BUT taken the question seriously

If by any chance I could know something about fascist structures and fascist philosophy, I then should be able to narrate or demonstrate what I had learned about them, I should be able to tell what exactly I knew about ordinary Germans and what exactly a fascist KNEW about concentration camps and what I saw of it in an institutional frame…HERe The first CONDITION of  being a fascist should be fulfilled

so -
YES or NO

Do I have this knowledge or not ?
I should KNOW, from the time my grandfather was 20 years old in 1933, what he had known and I should even be able to trace his knowledge to other persons

But as an outsider, subject and object
To notneutral interventions, active and passive
as  fascist I don't have the right to complain. Nor do I have the right to suffer with those kept in under human circumstances. SOLIDARITY does not exist

To continue my work as somebody intrinsically implicated  and excluded
even If I wanted to "reflect". (If  there is anything like a processing or reflecting process  of anything like a trauma  or any kind of trauma education)  on family members and their "exposition" to KZs
by establishing a  documentation about my historical materials, by using the abundant literature about  and from survivors as Bruno Bettelheim, Jean Améry Simone WEill Simone Veil, Primo Levi, Imre Kertesz, Nelly Sutro, Helen Czapski-Holtzmann , Isaak Katzennelson (W. Biermann translated) Norman Frister, G.Didier Hubermann / Ringelblum Archiv Warschaer Ghetto archives…or Kounio or
(Many of those books my grandmother gave me to read, and grandfather the fascist philosopher wrote about them…)
 the question remains
is there any possibility to THINK about the mechanism. of elimination
Is there any possibility to think and to "CALCULATE" chances techniques means  ways orders systems of elimination?
AND The most disturbing question: is there any possibility of a conclusion to be made by an observer who is NOT OUTSIDE the situation but concerned ?

BUT INSIDE...

Bruno Bettelheim was one of those who have cleared the ground for this question to be asked..

Measurements of annihilation
based on comparison, using mathematics in a kind of existential design
And subjects are part of the calculation - beings even when they are but unseen, invisible.

and is still - to quote some of the most famous parts of Bruno Bettelheim's book "Aufstand gegen die Masse" a possibility to survive.
(( But Bettelheims pedagogical development is itself authoritarian (say wellinformed critics) and by consequences  to be disposed off.))

The idea of punishment and the problem of subjects being based outside any forms of legal protection or denied  any form of sustainability even in their most basic needs
relies still on the concept of a subject...not only of the concept of being  an enemy.

- if subject and sustainability have any significance in determining what a "subject" looks like which is, perhaps,  a pure philosophical linguistic grammarly question ( to use some .....Lancanian... some .... Cohenian..... words....?) The question what a "subject" constitutes has extremely political consequences and defines a living being in any existential circumstances..

I cannot see nor understand why destroying this analysis 

and silencing  authors, writers thinkers is considered  to be the new decent way of making  philosophy.
Even when I am talking about GUILT. Even a destroyed enemy does not create a heideggerian ground of theological existence.

The problem in the incongruity of terrestrial concepts of religion
metaphysical concepts mixed with  new forms of interpreting space
creates new double binds
And I, as a slut as a mentally destroyed person without any solidarity and support could find interesting in  analyzing in order to help understanding
why the politics of collective punishments have created only a kind of double background.






The book heftarot

17 Jitro
Jeschajahu 6,1 - 7,6 and 9,5-6
sephardisch 6,1-13

Israel sollte die Patienten des Hosptals al-Shifa nach Tel Aviv ausfliegen

Die israelische Regierung aufzufordern, während der Kampfhandlungen um das Krankenhaus Al-Shifa
die Kinder Schwangeren Kranken DIESES Hospitals auszufliegen,  um sie in Israelischen Krankenhäusern unterzubringen und adäquat medizinisch zu versorgen

diese Aufforderung nach Evakuierung und angemessener medizinischer Versorgung eienr ZIVILBEVÖLKERUNG, die nicht als kriegerische kämpfende Einheit angesehen werden sollte - selbst wenn Kämpfer diese als human shields benutzen -

ist - wie die Aufforderung nach angemessener Betreuung eines militärisch bezwungenen und seiner bisherigen Kommandostruktur befreiten REGION in weiteren Sinn (anstatt sie nur sie militärisch zu sichern und zu "befrieden" - denn es ist anzunehmen, die Schutt Staub und Ascheproduktion in Gaza muß ja als Befriedungsprozess verstanden werden),

die als solche eine MEDIZINISCHE ABSICHERUNG ALLER darin Lebenden verlangt -

sicherlich als israelkritisch zu verstehen und damit als feindlich abzutun und
beruht sicherlich auf einer meiner   durch geschichtliche   Interpretation getrübten  familiär überlieferten Hinweisen zu Aktivitäen  wie denen des Red Cross Internationlen Hilfwerken und meinem, mir mühsam erarbeiten Wissen von aktiv beteiligten an Hilfemaßnahmen sowie Rettungsversuchen wie durch den Versöhnungsbund  -

doch warum ist sie deswegen unwert, gestellt zu werden?

Ich  verstehe nicht, wie deutschen Zeitungen die Initiative des franzöisschen Präsidenten lächerlich machen können, die wenigstens eine Initiative war,
während  von deutscher Seite KEINE humanitären Forderungen formuliert werden, es denn Finanzierungshilfen eingeforen darauf warten, bis das Elend sichtbar wird.

Die DENUNZIATION und die Diskreditierung intertionaler Hilffonds scheint mir heir nicht oberflächig sodnenrn fundamental wichtig zus ein - aus dem Die Grundhaltung eine zivilisatorische GRUNDHALTUNG sichtbar wird.
 

Humanitäre Hilfe scheint mir notwendig eine zu sein, die als zu entfremdende averstanden werden kann,  da sie immer dazu führen kann, dass das humanitäre Engagement als Aufrüsten des Gegeners verstanden kann.

Ist nicht JETZT die Publikation des Todes der israelischen Friedensaktivistin hier anzusiedeln,
zu einem Zeitpunkt publiziert, da er NOCHEINMAL die Argumentation zu bestätigen scheint, dass genau diese medizinische Unterstützung für Palästinenser Unsinn und als Schwäche zu zerstören ist?

Die Unterscheidung von Kriegsführneden Parteien und Zivilbevölkerung, von  militärischer Besatzung und zu schonender ZivIlbevölkerung, von polizeilicher Verfolgung in einem Land, dessen politische udn administrative Struktur udn Verwaltung zerstört und durch ein militärisches Kommando ersetzt wurde, eines das im Gegensatz zu MIliärischer  Bekämpfung und Vernichtung zu eindr Änderung von Denken Planung und Befriedung führen sollte und also in diesem Sinne arbeiten und agieren muss.

Auf dem Hinetrgrund von STADTVISIONEN
Urbanismus gegen Steinzeitzeitalter
(man sieht ja bei den Ansprachen und Interviews  mit CNN oder BBC oder ...
mit israelischen Politikern oder auch Militärs
in welchem Umfang die israelische Skyline modern urban intakt ist
gegenüber dem Steinzeitalter  der Staubwüsten  der Primitivität ...)

dass heir sich eine ZIVILISATION gegen etwas artikuliert, das darunter zu stehen scheint...

Abraham, Kierkegaard und der Kindermord

Die jüdische Allgemeine vom 3. November 2023 hat eine Art religiösen Leitartikel über Awraham veröffentlicht:

https://www.juedische-allgemeine.de/religion/ohne-stolz-und-hochmut/

if I dare comparing journalistic work with spiritual analysis
it would be important underline the   obvious hierarchy here :
admitting that I do not have any religious authority and so I must  SHUT UP or take my leave or take  a seat at the utmost bottom of the line ..

Einen Wochenkommentar mit Betonung auf das 
ZUSAMMEN des Wortes: "jachdav"

»jachdav« – »zusammen« –, um zu beschreiben, wie Vater und Sohn zusammen auf den Berg hinaufg

»jachdav« – »zusammen« –, um zu beschreiben, wie Vater und Sohn zusammen auf den Berg hinaufgehen.

»jachdav« – »zusammen« –, um zu beschreiben, wie Vater und Sohn zusammen auf den Berg hinaufgehen.

Im Gegensatz oder Unterschied ( denn im Hebräischen ist noch nicht DER Gegensatz
auf den hier später ankommt)

zum ZUSAMMEN
des Wortes. "jachad"

Das ist deshalb wichtig, weil das Zusammen von Awraham und Jizchak
im Unterschied stehen
zum Zusammen  mit Elieser und Jschmael
die NICHT am eigentlichen Geschehen teilhaben, Nicht teilhaben dürfen (sondern unten am Berg warten müssen, bis das heilige Oben sich vollzieht und unten der Widderton zu hören ist (... nicht wahr, meine rhetorische Emphase...a bit too hastily composed)
damit dann alle ZUSAMMEN nach hause gehen, aber in diesem weiteren Sinne zusammen, der NICHTVERPFLICHTEND ist.

Das liegt daran, so weist der Wochenkommentar der Jüdischen Allgemeine hin,
dass Vater und Sohn hier nur Abraham und Isaac
das entscheidende vollbringen-
nämlich die Bereitschaft des Menschenopfers
und dafür die Gnade des Nichtopfers offeriert bekommen.
nicht aber Abraham und Ismael.

Ich gebe zu, dass mir hier ein sarkastischer Unterton dazwischen kommt. Ich hatte darauf gewartet,  seit einigen Tagen, gewartet auf dieses Wort und seinen Kommentar, hier vom Kommentatoren der Jüdischen Allgemeinen einen Reflexion zu bekommen, eine Beunruhigung, aber die Selbstsicherheit des theologischen Diskurses fand darin nur den Siegenszug der Bescheidenheit, den Lob des Moderaten.

Und ich erinnere mich, wie Virgile Durand, einen von den frz Bestsellerautoren, selbst verloren in meinen Worten "ISAAC today" verloren vergessen

Denn die Leichtigkeit der Nacherzählung dieses vorerzählten Kommentars
ist jahrelangem SCHEITERN abgerungen.
In gewisser Weise kämpfe ich seit über 50 Jahren damit.
Das Thema des Kinderopfers ist einer meiner frühestens Albträume, die Urerinnerung des Wachwerdens, dessen Sxhrecken nur ein deutscher Traum ist,
Jahrelang hatte ich Scwheirigkeiten an den kleinen Kirchen vorbeizugehen
die Angst auf den ländlichen bayrischen Fluren, auf denn diese fahnentargenden weihrauschwingenden Prozessionen vorüberziehen, wie in einem Ingmar Bergmann Film
um sich dann ganz schwarz und weiss oder protestantisch bunt in den Kircehn und Kapellen einzuschliessen aus denen sie dann herausfluten, um sich das Opfer zu holen
das sie mit großen Axtschlägen in ihr Menschenholz  allen vor Augen zurechtzimmern.


Irrelevante Albernheiten, pseudospirituell,  es kann keine Geschichte keine Erinnerung darin verborgen sein udn niemals eine, die Wort für Wort in dien Kommentar des Rabbiners Avraham Rabdil einfliessen könnte. Hier ohne Brach fortzufahren - ist, so habe ich erfahren, bereits Sakrileg.
Und ich könnte nun versucht sein, Albernheiten wie die meinen
auf das heitere Gecshäft des Sören Kierkegaard zurückzuschreiben
als wäre eine Geschichte die sich wiederholt nicht albern. lächerlich eine Farce
und ich - nur ich stelle mir die Frage
ob es nicht vielmehr die Albernheit  einer WElT ist, die das Scheitern ihrer geistigen Sicherheit ihrer theologischen Broniertheit nicht sieht nicht sehen will.


Mich beschäftgt Kierkegaard
(und nicht nur, weil mein "verehrter philosophischer Lehrer" - ein Kierkegaardkenner und der einzige Philosoph  war, der mir genetisches phenomenologisches mein falschs denkens gestattete und mir darin die Möglichkeit gab, über Hermann Ritzel Husserl Edmund Husserl, Martin Heidegger, Adolf Rreinach  Edith Stein  und Jean-Paul Sartre nachzudenken - doch das ist unwichtig, denn mein Denken ist kein akademisches und kein wissenschaftliches. Heutzutage ist,  was nichtwissenschaftlcih ist - 
NICHT).

Mich beschäftgt Kierkegaard,  weil ich weiss, dass Kierkegaard und Abraham zur Auseinanderstezung mit Martin Heidegger und genau mit dem Problem der NS Verstrickung Martin Heideggers zu tun haben -und darin eine Diskussion zwischen Wolfgnag Ritzel und Martin Heidgeger beinhaltet, die mit dem Tod von Kindern zu tun hat und nicht nur: mit einem Thema des Todes.


Die Philosophie Heidegger mit der Frage von VATERJUDEN zu verbinden
mit der Frage der JÜDISCHEN OPFER und mit der Frage der JÜDISCHEN Auslegung von zu opfernden oder zu rettenden Kindern
beispielsweise 1933 - 1939 - im Nazideutschland
oder ab 1941 im besetzten Holland oder Griechenland oder Frankreich
so persönlich und albern so primitif wie es nur möglich sein kann in einem KONTEXRT ind em wissenschaftliches Arbeiten nicht mehr sinnvoll sein kann.


Warum sollte auch  - so die gängige Abwertung - die Deportation des jüdischen Montessori Lyzeums für mich eine Rolle spielen und zu Fragen der Schuld beitragen - über ein akademisches in einem ganz persönlichen MOmentwo doch die Fragen der ganz persönlichen MItschuld oder den Fragen einer Schuld des Traumatismus, des Versagens, die er über Generationen hinweg  ANDERS zu formulieren wären, es aber nicht sind...

denn SCHULD -hat die merkwürdige Folge der TRANSPERSONALITÄT:
Der verdammten.

Die Kriegsschuld, die verursachende Schuld derjenigen (Freunde Lehrer, Erzieher), Kinder nicht gerettet zu haben - oder sie nicht retten zu können, verschmilzt zu der Schuld derer, deier die daraus ein bestialisches Mordvergnügen machten und es fließt in die Argumentation derer ein, die Bestialität der KIndermörder zu bekämpfen und die Rettung von KIndern zu behindern.

Wenn die Frage der SCHULD
wie im Falle des Probst Grübers
auch die trifft die sich zwar bemühten zu helfen
aber dennoch zu wenig taten tun konnten
so reicht doch heute noch sein eigenes Eingeständnis aus, hier "SCHULD zuhaben"
und genügt als EINGESTÄNDNIS n seines Antisemitismus
Es ist doch ein Grund vorhanden, der sein Versagen DEFINITIV bezeichnet udn es ist
der einer Antisemitischen Denwkeise.

Dieser Diskurs bezeichnet sehr deutlich meine eprsönlicher ERfahrung in der REkonstruktion, in der Suche bach Dokumenten, nach belegen von Vresagen oder von Hilfsangeboten.
Damit will ich sagen:
In meiner Biographie In meiner persönlichen Erfahrung in meiner ganz einzelnen persönlichen ERfahrung
spielen Martin Bubers Auslegung von Kierkegaard

Das Opfer des EINZELNEN
die Individualität die Möglichkeit, für einen sich als  EINER ALLEINE
zu  zu retten, sich allein aus einem gesamtgesellschaftlichen Schuldrahmen heraus zu ziehen eine Rolle.

Nicht zuletzt in der Debatte zwischen Martin Heidegger und Wolfgang Ritzel,  die keine ist, der die Philosophiegeschichte keine Bedeutung beimißt, in der zwie NICHT darüber reden, was  Kierkegaards Idee von  Furcht und Zittern bedeute,
das Zittern derer die keine Quäker sind aber in der Not stehen
dieses. ein Kind zu opfern oder eine ganze Schulklasse

der Maria Montessori,
des jüdischen Montessori College Amsterdam und seiner Lehrerin Ro Joosten-Chotzen und ihres Sohnes Abs Joosten
Buchhinweise
Barbara Beuys

Aber auch Anna Essinger
Paul Geheeb
Janusz Korcacz
Kurt Hahn
Cerevole
Ferrière
Elisabeth Rotten

Das ist meine Last des Denkens.

Das ist worüber ich nachdenke, wenn ich an meine Kindheit denke und wenn ich an das denke, was mir meine Nazigroßeltern so beibrachten.

Die Auslegung Martin Bubers zu Kirkegaaard
Und zur Opferung von Kindern, rekonstruiert aus den Briefen des Korrekturleser Karl Theil
Idomeneus, der auf Martin Bubers Geheiß oder Bitte

udn ich kombiniere es mit der DEPORTATION des Jüdischen Lyzeums der Maria MOntessori in Amsterdam (nicht zuletzt von der Frage gequält,  ob Abs Joosten irgendjemand dazugebrcaht ahben könnte,  seine Mutter Ro Joosten von der Liste der zu Deportierenden zu nehmen.
Aber wen hätte er denn fragen können, als Clandestiner als Jude unter seinen Nazifreunden? Und wenn mand eise Farge stellte  - muss man dann nicht diese Freunde kompromittieren als Nazis mit Einfluss?)


Ich kann nicht behaupten, dass ich anders kann als an diesem heritage zu scheitern
ES gelingt mir nicht aus diesem denken ein Ganzes zu machen

Noch auch kann ich die selbstsichere Ruhe des Kommentatoren der Jüdischen Allgemeine
selbst die deutschen Auslegungen der heutigen Buber Und Rosenzweig - Kommentatoren
oder aber Martin Buber selbst
oder Hermann Cohen aushalten.


Es kommen mir die Vaterjuden dazwischen und das was mein Großvater die "Liebe" nennen würde
und ich nehme an, soweit ich das belegen kann und zeugen dafür nennen
dass er es in einer Auseinanderstetzung  / unter dem Einfluß von mit Helmut GOLLWITZER tut.

Das sind zwei verschiedene Dinge ( Auseinanderstetzung und UNter dem Einfluß) aber ich darf sagen, dass meine Recherche NICHT ganz in einem störungsfreien , in einem geschützen Raum abläuft
Und ich muss dazu sagen, dass unter denen wie Gollwitzer und Adolf Freudenberg und denen, die hier per Liebe verschwistert sind, wieder einige böse Worte seitens Israel zu verflechten sind, würden auch alle Personen dem Flüchtlingsbüro Londoner der Genfer Committee for refugies angehören.


Der Hass des Antisemitismus der hier zu stehen hat
wie eine Wand meines Gedankengefängnisses
in dem ich Zeit meines Lebens zu sitzen habe
der Hass der Schuld, des Versagens, verändert sich ka nicht durch ein Miteinander, durch Liebe, durch Kindermachen.

Denn zu meienr Aussenexistenz gehört nicht nur
daß ich - für mich - partikulare Sonderheit habe
Die Last
über die Verbindung Zwischen Nazi und Juden nachzudenken, sondern auch die Schwierigkeit habe, es NUR als Nazi tun zu dürfen

zwischen dem der - Von Antisemiten zum Juden gemacht wird, von Rassebestimmungen - nicht durch Wahlverwandscahften  zum Nichtjuden gemacht,(wer durch Literatur Fragen und neugier wird ja nicht notwendigerweise einer) zutiefst getrennt von dem,  der "ABSTAMMUNGMÄSSIG" Jude ist oder Jude sein zu wollen oder zu können.

Als solche solcherart betroffen
könnte ich nun VIELLEIcCHT Über Abraham nachdenken
VIEELEICHt ein Idee entwickelt eine eigene ANTWORT
denn ich meine, das problem Awrams Ist nicht NUR eines  ISRAELS.
Es wäre denn eines BEVOR der Name ISRAEL auftaucht. Welch Blasphemie.
 

 

Doch ahbe ich nun die TAZ gelesen, das Autorenpaar Hartmann

(und wieder kommt mir der Sarkasmus hoch)
über das verlorene URVERTRAUEN dden ZIVILISATIONSBRUCH des HOLOCAUSTES sprechen

Das Urvertrauen, in  in das WIR in die menschliche Gemeinschaft zu gehören-  kenne ich nicht.
Der Zivilisationsbruch, das Ausgecshlossensein
gilt noch nicht einaml für Blindheit meiner GRoßeltern, selbst dann nicht als eine davon Korczac mir vorlas, oder Anne Frank oder Summerhill
oder vom Spanischen Bürgerkrieg
nada

noch auch die meines Kidnes weil eine Nazivotze nur vergewaltigen kann.
Miene Menschlichkeit existiert nicht
wie soll ich als Obszönität auf den Anstand  reagieren.
Wollte ich selbst vor einer Synagogen die Abendandacht behüten wollen
slebst ein orthodoxer Jude der seine KIppa unter der basketballmütze versteckt müsste mich umtrampeln.


Die Reflexion,  die Sie, verherte Hartmanns,  von mir einfordern
die einzige die den ins Unendliche vervielfältigten Schmerz, den die mühsam zurückgehaltene Erinenrung des Holocausts wieder aufreißt, betäuben könnte


Es ist aber - so wie ich es sehe - die absolute Oberhoheit des Trauamtismus, der die der anderen nicht gelten lässt.

ES ist der EINZIGE Schmerz der GILT. Kein anderer.
Damit denke ich nicht den Holocaust zu relativieren, denn es sind Mitglieder meiner Familie, die selbst wie Der Geopolitiker Karl Haushoifer oder Albert Max Joosten als Mitgestalter  eben der Vernichtung gelten. Odre zu deren Schuld oder zu deren Verteidigung ich mühsam versuche, das Schweigen zu verstehen-  das sie als SCHULDIGE blosstellen will.Oder muss.


Den Holocaust will ich weder relativieren noch meine ich über den Schmerz richtig nachdenken zu können, den jüdische Familien tragen. Doch kann ich auch den Schmerz und den Traumtismus der Sklaverei nicht "nachvollziehen"
Und bereits dieses wird mir als KONTEXTUZALISIEREN angekreidet, als mein ANTISEMITISMUS fertiggemacht: Denn in meiner Familie gibt es unter den  (nicht, den noch nicht bankrottgegangenen den dann als Versager in die Partei gewechselten) Vorfahren SKlavenhändler und es gibt Architekten der Kolonailen Musterstadt wie den Architekten, der später  KZpläne für Siemens.. zeichnete.
Das Problem ist, dass SIE mich nicht darüber reden lassen.


Un doch ist für mich das Motiv des KINDERMORDES ein sehr tiefer kaum zu überwindender Moment.
Als Last und als Schuld
und selbst da, wo ich meinte, für mich allein,  neue Wege gegangen zu sein,
Da holt mich der Hass wieder ein. Die Zurückweisung.


Natürlich denke ich zuerst an jüdische Kinder
und an Kinder, die man versteckt
auch adoptierte KInder die man bezahlen lässt
für die Gefahr der sich die PFlegefamilie aussetzt oder für vermeintliche Großzügigkeit.
Kinder, die man mißbrauchen kann. Oder die man als Kolons Kolonisatoren ausbildet
für Bauvorhaben in Lateinamerkika oder Israel

Doich Facshistenvotzen haben nicht über  solche Zusammenhänge nachzudenken
Der Traumtismus HIER betrifft Ihre Menschlichkiet nicht.

Ich könnte sogar von Aufseher erzählen die trotzdem noch versuchten Juden Jüdinnen zu verstecken
ich könnte Missbrauch Vergewlatigung von Kindenr erzählen als Wiedregutmachung
Pfarrer der im KZ umkam
doch es ist immer IMMER nur deutsche Lüge. Von widerlichen, sich anbiedernden deutschen Lügner.

Die Eiseskälte des Traumtismus
die Sie als  Staatsbegründend beschrieben, erstreckt sich in KEINEM Ihrer Worte auf die anderen. Und ich habe nochnicht einmal das Wort Palästine gebraucht.
Traumatismus ..und hierhin gehörte ein wichtiges  Motiv Martin BUBERs, das den  Dialog forderte und Hans Trüb beeinflußte, der von der Begegnung sprach und dem Dialog um zu heilen
doch
Staatstheerorien, die  in ihrer Vehemenz des Gewaltmonopols, das sie für sich beanspruchen, dabei Anleihen an theorkratischer Gewalt und Allmachtsansprüchen machen, sind nicht dafür bekannt, denn Zusammenhang von Staat und Gewalt zu thematisiern.

Und für Martin BUber inetressiert man sich in einer NEUEN KRIEGERNATION auch weniger.

Ziehe ich damit wirklich die Existenz Israels in den Schmutz ? Ich halte die Frage für perfide.
Doch meine ich, ein Dialog ist nicht ein Staatsdenken. Heilung ist nicht nur "Staatsmodell".

ES sind Menschen meiner Familie gewesen, die Gründung des Staates Israel gefeiert haben auch seine militärischen Siege
ich kannte sogar mal einen, der der Ansicht war, ER könne ASYL am Altar  Israels zu finden.
Als einzigen Zufluchtsort.

Albern, nicht wahr.

 

 

 

Lächerlichkeit kann die Möglichkeit sein, etwas zu verstecken - und hier müsste ich auch Gerschom Scholem verweisen und Sabbathai Zwi.

 

Minoritäten und politischer Einfluß

Ich spreche nicht nur von Antisemitismus
ich suche nach humanitärer Hilfe.
Ich verbitte mir die Gleichstellung.

 

 

Es scheint mir wichtig darauf hinzuweisen, da momentan SOGAR HISTORIKER sich aufgerufen fühlen, die NOTWENDIGKEIT eines  ELIMINATIONSKRIEGES  geschichtlich zu rechtfertigen
- so als würde Putin das nicht auch tun: Geschichte als Militärstrategische Begründung einzusetzen.

Das REENACTMENTdes Zweiten Weltkrieges  -

könnte jedoch genauso gut auf die Notwendigkeit der Einsetzung eines Internationalen Gerichtshofes hinweisen oder  die Mitsprache eines UN Völkerbundes

Beispielsweise mit  dem / den Hilfekomitées für jüdische Flüchtlinge des Ökumenischen Weltkirchenbundes, die einen Vorläufer und frühe Zuarbeiter in den Minoritäten-Komittee des Weltbundes gefudnen hatten: Quäker die sich  bemühten,  Juden und nichtarische Christen ab 1933 zu unterstützen und aus Deutschland herauszuschaffen.

Hier vor meinem Haus wurden erst vor wenigen Wochen Stolpersteine verlegt, diesmal für Leute, die es HINAUSGESCHAFFT hatten, zwar beraubt gedemütigt um Eigentum und Existenz gebracht, aber überlebt hatten.


Mein Schmerz, mit dem ich dieser Steinverlegung zusah  - und mehr wäre mir nicht erlaubt - war als Nazideutscher Votze nur meiner.